i'm sticking with you cos i'm made out of glue

MOVED

2010-05-01T03:38:00.000-07:00

moved to http://wherethequestionslie.wordpress.com

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Given Up On Baking

2010-04-24T08:18:00.001-07:00

Today, 24^th April 2010, I have decided to give up on baking.

Usually, I found extreme pleasure in baking. Whenever I feel stressed, I would bake something.

However, baking has given me numerous disappointments as well.

Most of the time, I bake something, the comments aren’t great. Someone close to my heart once commented that I was a perfectionist.

I don’t really agree with that statement. However, I found it quite true whenever I bake something.

Whenever I try a new recipe, as ridiculous as it sounds, I will always expect it coming out from the oven looking the same as the magazine photograph.

Yes, I know that it takes years and many numerous baking lessons to perfect this skill.

But… Gaahhhh. Every single time a baking failure occurs, I have to gobble up the imperfect cookies/muffins/cupcakes. This sugar intake is really not good for me.

In addition, the amount of money I’ve spent on baking materials has also taken a toll on my savings. For quite some time, I’ve been trying to find a new oven. However, it will cost thousands to get a good oven.

Hence, I’ve decided to give up on it totally.

Goodbye my passion!

Hopefully, I will hang on to this promise that I will stop baking!

Cheezelmomeezel,

Cereal

Xiamen Trip Day 4

2010-04-13T03:57:00.000-07:00

Once again, we checked out of the hotel and Uncle Eric said that it was going to be one of the coldest day everrrr. We braced ourselves for temperatures ranging from 20 degrees to 12 degrees. Brrrr...

Checking out of Fuzhou Hotel

We travelled back to Xiamen and had lunch. We made our way to Xin Xing Packaging which is a chinese manufacturing company. Our group was the one who hosted this company, which was pretty cool.

eating our delicious lunch

after our meal

We were all anticipatingg the night river cruise at the Lujiang River! Because it was going to be bone-chilling cold and we could stay at the top deck feeling the cool breeze!

eating our dinner before going to the cruise

We took a stroll to the cruise station and boarded the cruise! WOOO!! All the students immediately ran up to the top deck. It was excruciatingly cold? After we took our photos, I had to run down because I really could not stand the wind! Also, because I'm kind of claustrophobic, I don't really like being around a lot of people, so I decided to go down to the sheltered area.

I watched the puppet show and after a while, all the students came down from the top deck to enjoy the show.

Limin and I decided to go back up to the top deck to enjoy the breeze since it was all quiet already. We talked a lot about relationships, guys and most importantly, God.

She was one of the friends that I brought to church and our friendship has went a long way. Initially, I couldn't see eye to eye with her views and sometimes, I got impatient and irritated with her.

But gradually, we got closer. It felt really good to encourage her along the way whenever she was down and to motivate her whenever she was thinking negatively. Limin has become my poly bestie (: Although on this trip, I got annoyed with her at times, but I don't think I could find another partner that is as good as her.

I don't suppose she will read this, because not many of my friends know about this blog. But I really thank God that He has brought us together! [:

Tee hee. A funny shot taken by Limin! I was soooo cold that I had to wrap the scarf around my face!!! I looked like an Afghan?

Day 4 came to an end but before we went to bed, we................ CAM-WHORED!

When my mom browsed through these photos, she got a shock of her life. She was like "what in the world???"

HAHA! I love my pals.

cam-whoring all the way in our BATHROBES

Cheezelmomeezel,

Cereal

SCGS Carnival and Sunday Movie Outings

2010-04-11T23:47:00.000-07:00

This year's carnival was pretty boring compared to two years back. But all of us, SC girls, had fun catching up with one another again (:

SC Carnival

the vintage SC sign

the mannequin!

our cupcakes [:

knacky photographs :D

During this holidays, every single sunday, without fail, a group of us, Amelia, Joanna, Chuan Fa, Edwin, Brandon and Daryl would meet up to watch movies.

Yesterday, we managed to catch Date Night and it was the funniest movie I've ever since this year! If you have the time, this is one movie you have got to watch!

Cheezelmomeezel,

Cereal

My Date with Mumsy and Bangala

2010-04-11T23:14:00.000-07:00

After I heard many rave reviews regarding the When In Rome movie, I made a date with my mumsy to watch it together. We booked the tickets at Lido.

When In Rome

While waiting for my mumsy to come out from the toilet, look at what I've found! Classic movie posters :D

Ten Commandments Movie Poster

Samson and Delilah!

Mumsy Posing For The Camera

Gelatissimo :D

Eating Our Delicious Ice Cream :D

The movie wasn't as great as I thought it would be. However, mumsy really liked it. I thought Kristen Bell was gorgeous!

The next day, I met angela for lunch at Holland Village. While waiting for her, I walked around the entire place and found several other eateries that the magazines reviewed about. These included one of the places I've always wanted to try, which is 2am Desert Bar!

Angela arrived and we ate at Everything With Fries. The waiter really amused us. He kept accidentally banging the baby chairs whenever he walked past our table and his comical actions really entertained us.

Everything With Fries

Angela ordered Chicken Sandwich with Salt and Vinegar Fries while I order the Breaded NZ King Salmon with Garlic and Herbs Fries. The fries weren't much, although the Salmon had a really delicious crispy bread top, the main attraction was ironically, the Caesar Salad.

Delicious Food and Happy People

Gotta Go. Ciao!

Xiamen Trip Day 3

2010-04-11T22:15:00.000-07:00

On our third day in Xiamen, we checked out of our hotel. Being typical girls, we cam whore at the hotel walkway! Hee hee (:

the pretending air stewardess haha!

Hee hee!

While we were on our way to the company Hai Yi Food Pte Ltd, ha, you will never guess who this is!

Carina is getting married!!

It's Carina, I loan her my scarf because she wanted to shelter herself from the UV RAYS!! Ha, Limin, Liling and I were getting a kick laughing at her! She looks half like a bride thats entering a chapel and a white riding hood! :D

Anyway, regarding the company visit, we were made to wear these things that looked like shower caps on our shoes. Ha! Looks pretty goofy, doesn't it?

Shower Cap Shoes

Liling and Xinying's Ai Mei Photo

Miss Tan and The Gang

The company gave us free samples of their food, it tasted really delish. However, I still preferred the fish balls that my dad cooked for the family.

Hai Yi Brochure and Food Sample

After our visit to the company, we made our way to Metro Jin Jiang Cash and Carry. It is a hypermart that practically sells everything! If it could have a Singapore name for it, it would be called the China Mustafa.

Metro The Hypermart

Hershey's Chocolates

Xinying, my toilet khaki! :D

Limin! My poly bestie [:

After Our Day Of Shopping @ Hypermart

I really loved the beautiful container of this Hershey's Chocolates! But they were too expensive, SGD 10!

Anyways, we went back to our hotels and shopped around Fuzhou City, which did not have anything at all, besides electronic stuff.

However, we managed to find this amazing Japanese bakery shop called Ganso. We managed to trick Carina into thinking that we didn't buy her birthday cake and we were terribly disappointed with their food. She believed us! :D

The shopper sisters, Xinying, Carina and myself took a cab to NanJie. It was really scary!!! It was my first time taking a cab to this shopping street that we absolutely had no knowledge of.

Being in a cab where there were bars separating the driver and the passengers was pretty new to me., I was praying really really hard in the cab because I was trembling with FEAR.

After being in a cab for 10 minutes, we finally reached our destination. Goodness, those 10 minutes felt like an HOUR. Ha! The only shop that manage to impress us was this shoe shop where all of us bought 2 pair of shoes each. But unfortunately, when I went back to Singapore, my feet amazingly expanded and I couldn't fit into those shoes anymore. SIGH.

Xinying had sore throat and we went to this cafe that sold really delicious Gui Ling Gao. Normally, those sold in Singapore will be bitter. However, the one I ate in Fuzhou was sweetened by Pi Pa Gao. Mmmm... It tasted really comforting to my throat.

Xinying, Carina and I eating Gui Ling Gao

Xinying and I wanted to go back to the hotel to celebrate Carina's birthday but she wanted to continue shopping!!! We were like what...? It was 9.45pm, and we managed to convince her to return back to the hotel. Waha! :D

We had the celebration in the hotel room and we surprised Carina by switching off the light and presenting her with a beautiful cream strawberry cake!

Check Out Carina's Beautiful Cake!

The Husband and Wife look very loving. HAHAH

Celebrating Carina's Birthday!

We were all really zonked out by the time we returned back to the hotel. But we still had to prepare several questions to ask the companies the next day. Liling made this question for Xin Xing Packaging. The question was, "Why do you want to choose to pluck stars?"

That question cracked us up for a really long time. Before we headed off to our beds, we took more photos!

HAHA! Liling looks so funny!

WOOO! Day 3 has come to an end!

Cheezelmomeezel,

Cereal

Fun With Photographs

2010-04-07T23:53:00.000-07:00

Today, I felt that I had quite a lot of time on my hands, hence, I decided to do something not that constructive but mind-blowing (at least to me) Ha!

I had a lot of fun playing with my photographs! Tee Hee! (:

if only...

my dearest mumsy

my girl best friend, bangala [:

painting of jazreel, meiping and myself (:

photograph of yvonne, zhiying and myself

the bangkok guys ha!

collage of my poly best pals

food fantasy

Ha! These photos really cracked me up.

Love them lots!

Love and Marriage? I believe in neither.

2010-04-07T23:18:00.001-07:00

As I was watching Friends Season 2, where Monica broke off with Richard because of incompatible future viewpoints, Monica could not eat, sleep or practically do anything without thinking of Richard.

Only when her father came to her house and told her that he saw Richard on his way to Monica's house and said that Richard was feeling terrible as well, Monica was then able to get her well-deserved rest.

I was wondering to myself, is this love? To see someone that you love hurt as much as you or even more?

How is that love? Isn’t love about putting that person’s needs in front of yours? Giving sacrificially even though you know that s/he may not reciprocate?

One of the most self-sacrificing love I’ve ever seen is my mom’s to my dad. I mean, she could be giving out her everything to make sure that his wounds are all right, caring about him, and the next thing that happens, BAM, he hurts her again.

Seeing such things happen in my parents’ marriage cause me to never believe in love, let alone marriage.

Come on, the thought of getting married to someone and being forced into taking care of him simply because you have made a pledge at the altar scares the heck out of me.

I don’t want to be a sacrificial lamb. I don’t want my guy to believe that he is stuck with me for his lifetime. I don’t want to feel as though I’m being forced to do things for him.

Sometimes, I wonder… does love equate to marriage?

I simply don’t believe in both.

I believe in the love God has for me, I believe in kinship love, I believe in friendship love. But… love between a guy and a girl? It will never last.

Or does it?

Dempsey & Great World

2010-04-06T23:31:00.000-07:00

One fine day, Meiping, Jazreel and I had this strong urge to walk around Dempsey area. Ha, ever since a few years back, I've heard a lot a lot about Dempsey Hill. Why not just give it a shot?

Jazreel gave Meiping and I a ride to Dempsey Hill. It really looked like a forest on the outside. But once we were driven inside, we were presented with many different eateries.

We walked around the whole area before deciding to settle down for lunch at Jones The Grocer.

different groceries sold at Jones the Grocer

There is another outlet at Mandarin Gallery. We ordered Salmon Sandwich, Chicken Sandwich and Baked Salted Cod.

my favourite Salmon sandwich

baked salted cod

The waiter and I spent quite a lot of time discussing on how the sandwiches were to be cut. Since the dishes were meant to be shared among the 3 of us, I told him, "could we have the sandwiches sliced to 3 pieces?" and he was like, "Salmon sliced to 3 pieces? Okay." We laughed and tried to explain slowly what we wanted. But overall, the waiter provided us with a good service.

Jazreel, the happy camper

meiping and I, we're in love with the salmon sandwich

After we finished our meals at Jones the Grocer, we went over to PS Cafe @ Dempsey to have some deserts. But unfortunately, one of the waitress really made us disappointed with the service. Initially, we wanted to order a Banana Mango Crumble and Hot chocolate. However, we were informed that the minimum order was one dish per person. We were appalled by this but we were fine with it. We decided to continue looking at our menu, and out of the blue, the same waitress grabbed my menu away while I was still looking at it. We told the waitress that we were still looking at our menus. She grunted and walked away. Disgusted by her attitude, we decided to have our deserts somewhere else.

We wanted to try La Fondue but it was closed for the day. We took a bus to Tanglin Mall and went to Oomphatico's. We ordered Banana Mango Crumble and Molten Lava Chocolate Cake. The banana mango crumble lacked substance though it looked really appetizing. Meiping and I loved the crispy crumble crust, however, once the bottom had too much liquid and I felt as though I was drinking banana mango soup that was a tad too sweet for my liking.

The molten lava chocolate cake was not up to my expectations either, however, on the side of the plate, there was this crispy wafer coated with chocolate. Now that was amazing. (:

we're waiting for the dishes to be served~

molten lava chocolate cake

banana mango crumble

hee hee (:

meiping sitting on the grand silver chair (:

the beautiful decoration

after our satisfying desert meal

I really expected a lot more from Dempsey as I have heard a lot of rave reviews about it. Oh wells. I guess my next food find destination will be at Clarke Quay or Holland Village.

Ciao!

Cheezelmomeezel,

Cereal

Xiamen Trip Day 2

2010-04-06T08:57:00.000-07:00

Woo! As usual, everything is just so exciting in Xiamen! Our group is always the FIRST group to go down for breakfast :D I find that there's really cool that we're always the earliest for our buffets! :D

the early breakfast buffet girls

Honestly, the buffets were really major disappointments. All the breakfasts always had you tiao, the deep fried butterfly, toasts, sesame balls with red bean paste. These deep fried food really do not help our immune system. As a result, we were encouraged to take 2 vitamin C pills every single day. The dishes that were served to us were not as oily as I had expected, since everyone back in Singapore kept talking about the 2cm layer of oil in the food. However, it was still oilier than Singapore's cuisine and I wasn't accustomed to it hence I suffered from really bad stomach aches throughout the trip.

After our breakfast, some of us decided to do this company portrait photo shoot! HAHA! We had a lot of fun trying to look professional and serious.

we're attempting to look like some professional hotel managers

We checked out of the hotel and headed for the coach for our first company visit to Capital Mall!

Here's some photos while travelling...

Zhangzhou's KFC

(did you know they sell egg tarts with red bean? Awesomeness)

We're heading off to Capital Mall!

(check out my hair colour difference)

We went to Capital Mall at Zhangzhou, it was similar to Capital Land in Singapore. The staff at Capital Mall treated us to Zhangzhou's specialty, Peanut Mochi. OH. MY. WORD. This is, in fact, the most wonderful and beautiful mochi I have ever tasted, true to my heart! I loved how crunchy the peanut filling was.

Capital Mall @ Zhang Zhou

my favourite egg tart and peanut mochi!

the awesome crunchy peanut bits in the mochi

standing at the entrance of Capital Mall @ Zhangzhou

wal-mart AHH!!

I finally went into Wal-Mart in Capital Mall. I have been waiting and waiting to go to Wal-Mart for a seriously long time. Some may laugh at this but I really think Wal-Mart is extremely cool! With its wide variety of groceries and amazingly low prices, how could anyone not love Wal-Mart?

Limin and I at Wal-Mart

(we were prohibited from taking photos inside Wal-Mart)

During this trip, I have grown so much more in love with Strawberries! Strawberry Mochi, Strawberry Yogurt drink (which I accidentally squirted at Liling while attempting to open the drink), Strawberry Milk Tea and Strawberry Milk Candy! Gahh!! I think I really love strawberry flavoured products simply because its associated to the colour pink! Awesomeness.

Everyone has been cautious about the melamine in the dairy products.

As for me, I'm daring enough to give it a shot.

The strawberry yogurt drink did not disappoint (:

strawberry milk candy, mochi (i think this Ah Q brand is the best out of 4 mochi brands i've purcharsed from supermarkets) and strawberry milk tea

when you go China, you've got to got to buy their milk tea!

After our first company visit, we went on to our second, which was at Quanzhou Embrodiery Traditional Factory. And yes, we spent nearly 3 hours travelling to Quanzhou. I felt like a serious pig during this trip. A pig that was ready to be slaughtered or something. After feeding us dishes that is fried with oil and salt, we proceeded to sleep on the coach for hours before reaching our next destination.

Put it more plainly, we were eating and sleeping during the entire trip? I seriously can vouch that my ass has expanded due to this trip.

Anyways, enough ranting about my weight gain because you're in for a whole lot of shock!

I have to make this very very important stand! While we travelled to Quanzhou, we saw a whole truckload of PIGS that were riding off to slaughterland. I mean, can you see how sad these pigs look? Oh my goodness. That's my perfect reason why I decided to be a vegetarian. Ughh. One of the horrible BIT guys actually whacked the pig's head and shouted, "Off you go and be a pork!" I felt like slapping that guy in the face!

the truckload of piggggsss. CRUEL.

Be a vegetarian and save animals' lives! Okay, moving on to the company visit...

The second company visit was pretty cool because we got to see how the staff there manually embroidered the products and also the beautiful porcelain items that the company manufactured.

one of the staff delicately sewing

porcelain product

our complimentary puppet show

we were asked to autographed the company's book

We travelled back to the hotel and we stayed in a hotel that has a sitting area with a beautiful tea set, which was actually more like a white elephant since they couldn't be used? But I had fun taking photos with it. (:

the pretty tea set sitting in the hotel room

i'm playing in the bathroom! haha!

We had our first free and easy and finally getting our hands dirty to shop! However, I spent nearly half of my RMB in this shopping mall, which was really not worth it because the items sold were practically overpriced. OH wells, too bad for me.

After all the crazy shopping, we headed for some awesome pizza buffet, which was only 45 RMB! The pizzas were amazing. They were superbly crispy, however, the ice cream tasted like expired milk powder?

our dinner restaurant

Ha, insider joke. While Liling, Carina, Limin and I attempted to cross the road to go to KFC (which was opposite our hotel), we kept screaming and screaming! I guess we pissed the pedestrians off. One of the guys, which totally scared us, shouted at us. And another guy attempted to push us into one of the cabs? Like what in the world? Thankfully, nothing happened and after buying our food, we crossed the roads, screaming again like some crazy women!

I love this group of girls! We can choose to be crazy and neither of us would mind.

Gotta sleep now! Ciao!

Dinner Impossible!

2010-04-05T01:23:00.000-07:00

Ha, just when you think you have the totally imperfect ingredients to make a dish, think again.

As I was waiting for my bread and butter pudding to bake, I happened to chance upon this interesting show called Dinner Impossible.

Being an avid reader of cook books and I love to watch cook shows, my eyes were fixed on this new episode.

This episode really made me think that, as long as you do your best, nothing is impossible.

Chef Robert was asked to make dinner for 450 people for a Yahoo! event in 8 hours.

The menu was decided by the Top 15 recipes searched on Yahoo! that was randomly matched with Top 15 food items searched on Yahoo!

You can imagine the bizarre recipes that this mix and match search engine.

The normal recipes included Green Tea Crepes, Chicken Fried Rice and Pineapple Cookies.

The really bizarre ones were Apple Sushi, Salmon Cupcakes, Lemon Soup, Pumpkin Lasagna Peanut Butter Chili?

I was like.. oh my word? How is this chef going to make this work? He was practically doing trial and error for such a grand event.

In the end, like all happy endings, the dishes turned out really well! (:

Cheezelmomeezel,

Cereal

Xiamen Trip Day 1

2010-04-02T20:36:00.000-07:00

Day 1

Much to our disappointment, we weren't taking Singapore Airlines! We took Air China, the seats were pretty cramped, there weren't much leg space and there was no personal television! But oh well, we settled for it (there wasn't much of a choice, was there?)

the Xiamen gang (:

I nearly died of hunger during the 4 hour flight, but, thankfully, the breakfast on the plane was delish. (: I loved how the cheese when melted with the scrambled egg made the the meal a lot tastier [:

my first breakfast on the airplane!!

(doesn't look appetizing, but it really was)

the hungry girl ready to devour her meal [:

With the super mini television that was shared by 9 passengers, I managed to squint my eyes to watch Hua Mulan while the rest of my friends were dozing off on the plane (: Surprisingly, it was a nice show as it was one of those shows that I refused to watch while it was previewing in Singapore. The show speaks of sacrifice and selfless love. Hua Mulan's lover had to forgo his love with Hua Mulan so that he could get married with the other rival country's princess.

Anyways, moving on! We finally reached Xiamen Airport! Boy oh boy, the whole tour group was pleasantly surprised by the cooling temperature. Initially, we were expecting bone-chilling temperature, but it was just right.

Xiamen Gang on the coach!

My Xiamen Partner, Limin!

We got pretty excited, taking photos of everything (seriously, everything) we saw on the coach. But it's pretty normal, I guess, a foreigner in a country she has never been to.

check out the Xiamen advertisement (:

We went for lunch at the seafood restaurant. Ha, every single meal we had, we were always presented with a huge huge huge (huge!) bowl of rice. There was not a single meal that the tour group could finish. I mean, even the guys could not finish the food given to them.

Our first meal at Xiamen Seafood Restaurant

the vast amount of food

the girls eating their meals

the satisfied gang after eating their first meal in Xiamen

In the toilet at the restaurant, you could hear all the girls squealing, "where is the colourful button? where where?" In fact, there was no colourful button, unless all the girls were colour-blind.

the sign on the toilet bowl (just for laughs)

We finally reached our destination! We were about to go to the Hakka Round Houses. By the time we reached the place, it was about 7pm. Usually, the tour buses don't fetch people up there to the place that late. (it was a half an hour ride to the mountains) It was a bumpy ride and the bus driver would honk every single time he made a turn. This was to warn the vehicles in front that there was another vehicle turning. Since the turns were very abrupt, it was impossible to tell if there was a vehicle turning, hence the honk would be alert others up ahead.

The gang waiting for the tour bus to bring us to the Hakka Round Houses

Check out the ancient toilets :D

It was amazing to know how these beautiful structured buildings were purely made out of mud. These houses have lasted for hundreds and hundreds of years. Imagine that these round houses managed to outlast the tall skyscrapers during an earthquake!

the photo is pretty creepy

the bird eye view of Hakka Round Houses

Crossing over to visit the Hakka Round Houses

check out Kang Yi's face! Ha!

The tour was an eye opener to all the students and we had a lot of fun checking out the knick knacks that the Hakka Round Houses villagers were selling. Limin bought some toys that reminded her of her childhood, yes, the nostalgia does return to all of us. (: I bought a cute bohemian bag and some sweet potato chips that made me return to the hotel with a sore throat.

the little knick knacks

Hakka Round Houses at 7pm

After we returned back to the hotel, it was about 10pm, I decided to make a daring move, which is to DYE MY HAIR!! Ha, it was amusing because my friends were like, "dye your hair in Xiamen?"

Yupps yupps, initially I was disappointed as the colour did not show up during the first day. But now, the colour (which is Strawberry Pink) is pretty obvious! I really love how easy the Liese 3 step hair colour process was so easy! Although, I did make a boo-boo by not wearing gloves while I put the hair dye solution on my hands. Ugh, it stung so bad! But, other than that, everything went well!

Have to go off now! God bless!

Cheezelmomeezel,

Cereal

Holidays are here!

2010-03-09T23:20:00.000-08:00

The holidays are finally here. Ironically, everyday has been extremely busy days for me though.

I got to catch up with many people whom I have not spoken to for a long time due to hectic school schedules. But the holidays have finally allowed me to meet up with them again!

Angela's birthday celebration was more of a catch up session where we were discussing about broken relationships and how getting into a relationship simply because you need one is just plain dumb. We were also laughing at the fact that girls' outfit were just getting lower in the top area and higher at their bottom parts.

Seriously, why do girls need to show so much skin? I believe in this sentence quoted by Carrie Underwood, she said "if I want to show some skin at the top, I would cover myself at the bottom." You do not need to flash everything all at one shot. Angela and I met Tessa at the Grand Hyatt Hotel and we took a photo with her! (:

My mom invited me to go with her to the Neways Talk regarding skincare. I gladly obliged even though I was somehow unwilling to because I was suppose to go to Jazreel's new house!!

But anyways, she treated me to Carousel Buffet at the Royal Plaza. Honestly, the buffet isn't much. Many magazines have recommended it, but my mom paid a hefty price of $40 (after a 10% DBS card discount) but the variety of food was quite disappointing.

After the buffet with my lovely mother, I rushed down to Emily Hill to meet Jazreel, Audrie and Angela. The place was a undiscovered gem to us all (:

After we departed from Emily Hill, Jazreel, Angela and I stayed on to try the new bakery and cafe that we just uncovered!

I finally found Mirabelle, which is a bakery that sells awesome french pastries, etc. A big bonus is that the owner of the shop actually speaks french.

The next day, I organized a old cell gathering which was awesome! I watched alice in wonderland with the old cell. HAHA Odelia and I acted as the morons of these posters.

Taby and I looked awesomely retarded in the mega-fied glasses. Seriously, who would actually purchase these huge glasses?!

Ant, Jo, Tabs and I decided to have a girls' day out, where we all decided to wear our dressy frocks out (:

Ant and Jo were late and Tabs decided to play this game where we would play scissor paper stone and the loser would have to wear whatever the winner picks for her.

Omg. Humiliating? Seriously. I lost the first 2 rounds and Tabs lost 5 rounds HAHA.

As usual, Taby would pick out the most colourful dress in the store and I was forced to pose in it. Gahhh.

The second dress resembled a getai dress? I was so reluctant to try it out, but when I eventually did, it wasn't that bad! I actually liked the dress. The satin material felt very soft against the skin. But I don't have the character to pull off this dress. Oh wells! (:

This is one of the dresses I picked out of Tabs (: I thought it looked awesome. The grey colour tube dress with golden floral prints and a cute ribbon in front suited Tabs really well.

Ant and Jo arrived and we went to watch Dear John, which was adapted from a story by Nicholas Sparks. He is one of my most favourite authors. I love his books, especially Message In The Bottle.

However, I felt that this movie was a little too draggy for my liking. It was sweet romance, but a little tad dramatic.

Awesomely awesome. I'm heading for my cycling trip with von and zhiying now~

Ciao! (:

Cheezelmomeezel,

Cereal

A real hectic day

2010-03-03T21:27:00.000-08:00

Today was an incredibly hectic day for me. I woke up early in the morning, intending to bake Chocolate Cigars for Angela as a surprise for her birthday. With last minute notice, my mom asked me to bake lemon cake with icing for her bible study friends!

Of course I couldn’t deny my mom the service, so I did.

The whole day didn’t go well. Not at all.

I knew that Angela loves love letters and chocolate cigars looked just like them. Just that they taste like softer crispier cookies but in a letter rolled up form.

It was so badddd… I couldn’t even roll up the flat sheet of biscuit without breaking them (either they were too soft) or cracking them (because they were too crispy?)

I didn’t know what to do. It was my first attempt and the recipe clearly stated bake 3 days beforehand which I missed out on.

I decided to give up since I already made Angela a photo collage present and a menu of ramen places she can go to.

The Photo Collage

Oh my goodness, I’m going to sidetrack a little with the photo collage story.

While I was doing her present, I don’t know how in the world I cut my finger sooo deep and not be able to notice the stinging pain in my finger. All I noticed was, “Hey, how come there’s so much ketchup on the ruler, table and photo? Since when did I eat ketchup?” I even paused for

10 seconds wondering if I ate ketchup today. Then I realized my finger was flowing down with a lot a lot a lot of blood. Seriously, I’m a stupid fool with the inability of feeling pain?

Anyways, back to today…

I focused on making my mom’s lemon cake with icing. So far so good, the cake smelt and looked amazing. But because of my stupid brain, I decided to open the cake tin when the cake hadn’t cooled down yet. This made the one side of the cake separate from the cake and it was stuck onto the cake tin.

I was really stunned. In order to redeem myself, I decided to cut the cakes into smaller slices.

Lemon Cake With Icing

While making the icing, I dropped the ceramic bowl onto the floor and the margarine and icing sugar fell onto the floor and I accidentally cut myself with the broken pieces that were smashed onto the floor. In the end, I had to make another batch of sugar icing for the cake...

It’s really frustrating when you are unable to do 2 of your most favourite things well. Baking and leading my cell.

Ugh.

Anyways, I used the side of the cake that was stuck onto the cake tin to make small little hearts for Angela. I hope its okay. It’s the best I could do.

The Little Cake Hearts

I hope everything goes well today! [:

Cheezelmomeezel,

Cereal

Gahh!!

2010-02-01T08:49:00.001-08:00

Ughh. Today was one of the most depressing project presentations ever... My project team touched on so many aspects, including the different ways of commercializing our business. And my teacher still dare to ask us at the end of our presentation, "how come you guys didn't touch on your future plans ah?"

Oh my goodness, all of our eyeballs nearly popped out of our eye sockets. We could've thrown our laptops at the teacher's face, seriously.

Ughhh... Thank goodness I had salmon sushi, green tea steam cake and red bean pancake for me to binge on. Otherwise, I would burst.

One happy thing happened today though (: *sense of joy and happiness. I finally got my dream phone, after 7 years of waiting! It's my PINK FLIPPHONE! I finally own a flip phone! Yayes! Not only that, it's my favourite colour, PINKKK!!

Okayes, gotta head back to prepare for my last final project presentation for tomorrow.

Wooooohooooo!

Cheezelmomeezel,

Cereal

Baking Updates!

2010-01-27T23:31:00.000-08:00

As I begin to browse through one of the famous online shop owner’s blog, I was really amazed by how perfect her life was.

It got me pondering.. Why aren’t all humans given the same amount of wealth, beauty and eloquence?

Those girls are able to live out such extravagant lifestyles whereas I have to earn my own keep stake by baking cookies and rum balls.

Oh wells! Everyone is given according to how much they can return back to God. I believe my treasures are stocked up in Heaven! (:

Oh yes! These are some photos of my newest baking collection!

I’ve recently started making muffins and cakes. Total failure compared to my cookies. Ughh.

White Chocolate Cheesecake

(you can actually tell the base of the cheesecake is uneven o.O)

Rum Balls

Tuscanian Almond Cookies

Oatmeal Crunch Cookies

(baked specially for Brenda's Grandma)

Cheezelmomeezel,

Cereal

Banana Walnut Teacake

2009-12-30T05:46:00.000-08:00

Woohoo! Today, my mother asked me to bake a cake for her cell group! I was really happy to do it for her, since baking is my passion!

I seriously believe in http://community.livejournal.com/bakebakebake/ for all my recipes! (:

I decided to bake banana walnut tea cake since my family had 8 bananas at home. In case you didn't know, my family are banana fans. Every week, we will always buy 2 clusters of bananas home.

Bananas are great. by the way. Bananas are rich in vitamin B6 and they are a good source of fiber, vitamin C, magnesium and potassium. Bananas also contain plenty of carbohydrates which are the body's main source of energy.

Bananas can be used to blend with low fat yogurt to make healthy smoothies. Due to its thick texture, the smoothie will taste really excellent. Bananas can also be blend with passion fruit and oranges to give you a healthy fruit juice.

Okay, enough said about the benefits of bananas. I shall touch on my newest baking creation! The photos really don't look like much because of the dull brown colour. However, the smell of the cake was amazing and the texture of the cake was smooth. I am really proud of this cake creation because even I was shocked at the end results!

Banana Walnut Teacake

Banana Walnut Muffins

Banana Walnut Teacake and Muffins (:

Enjoy! (:

Cheezelmomeezel,

Cereal

Running For God

2009-12-27T04:56:00.000-08:00

It has been such a long time since I’ve ran for God. This may sound stupid, but the thing that stopped me from running was the fear of getting bigger thighs.

But today, during church service, when I saw that video that Pastor Andy had put up for his preaching. It spoke to me so much.

Rick, the father’s son, wanted to run a marathon so badly and his father decided to enter it with him. As Rick was physically unable to do anything by himself, his father had to pull or push him during the marathon. The very last sentence of the video said “Don’t Run Alone”

When I saw that sentence, God spoke to me, He said, “Cheryl, come along and run with me.”

Running was one of sources that allowed me to remember who God is. Every time I run, I would plug in Christian music. It has never failed to speak to me. Every run that I’ve ran, many of the guys would look at me and give me the “I bet this girl can’t run far” look. But every single time, whenever they can no longer have the stamina to continue running, I will still keep going. God has told me, “because these men are relying on secular music or their own strength, whereas you are relying on my power and my strength, that is why you won’t grow weary.”

Every single time I’m upset or angry, God can speak to me through the runs. I am able to get recharged through the runs. I thank God for giving me such an avenue to recharge my spiritual strength. I still remember whenever I ran, I would carry with me this BIG and HUGE grin, because I can really sense God’s presence and I know He is there with me and for me yesterday, today and forevermore.

I believe that these runs that I’ve had also motivated me to have this feeling to want to do every single thing well for God, especially through my academics. I’ve forgotten feeling of wanting to use my academics to glorify God’s name. Because of God’s favour and providence, I’ve gotten the first in my cohort. But due to these victories, I was so concentrated on trying to be first again that I forgot about my purpose, which is to bring glory to God.

It has been a long time since a church service has spoken to me. Now it’s time for me to pick myself up and RUN!

Run for Jesus! So what if my thighs get bigger, right right? So long as my faith can be on solid rock, I’m going to run, I’m going to count on God.

Cheezelmomeezel,
Cereal

IBSM!

2009-12-09T23:58:00.001-08:00

Woohoo! I got selected to go for the International Business Study Mission to China and Hongkong! Oh my goodness! I’m so elated! :D

Finally! I get a chance to step into Hongkong! I have always wanted to go there ever since I was a small girl! I will finally be able to converse in my favourite dialect, Cantonese and I will be able to breathe in the air of Hongkong!

In addition to all these goodies, I will be able to shop in the clothing shop, H&M!

Hmmm… I’m going to use this opportunity to see if I really want to work overseas (: A part of me really wants to go overseas to work, to get away from Singapore for 6 months. But to be able to just survive on my own and be independent in a foreign country seems like a daring challenge. I don’t want to leave my home country just for internship.

Okay, switching topics, I’m just going to do some ranting on my favourite food! Haha! I love my peanut butter with everything! I seriously think I’m going crazy over my consumption of peanut butter. I eat it with muesli bars, cookies, apples and prunes. Prunes and peanut butter? You may be wondering what kind of combination is that. I agree with you! But it’s totally delicious! :D

My other favourite food is pork floss! I can eat pork floss with any staple food. I’ll fry my rice with mix vegetables, chicken rice mix and add a whole lot of pork floss! I’ll drench my chicken soup with pork floss. I’ll eat my silken tofu with pork floss. I’ll spread condensed milk on my multigrain bread and toss in some pork floss on top of the toasted bread.

Gosh, I still remember Amelia’s recommendation of the pork floss biscuits in Bangkok! I had actually intended to save a packet of pork floss crackers for my family, but I ended up devouring everything while watching a Hongkong drama serial.

:D All right, I better get back to my revision. I can’t wait to go for the Swissotel Christmas Buffet with the Bangkok group! I will finally be able to eat a TURKEY! I’ve never eaten a turkey before! Also, hopefully, I will be able to try the Christmas drink, eggnog? I heard about the goodness of an eggnog! Also, I hope to get my hands on the Christmas log cake! I’ve only eaten log cake once in my entire life and I feel so ecstatic just by seeing log cakes! I wonder if they have Green Tea flavoured Christmas log cakes :D

I’ll end my musings here!

Cheezelmomeezel
Cereal

when it comes to baking, you just need a little more patience.

2009-11-26T01:21:00.000-08:00

Woo, I recently got hooked to baking again!

Initially, I just wanted to bake carrot cake, as I chanced upon the recipe in Women’s Weekly. I remembered that my bestie (Bangala!) loves carrot cake.

Apple Decoration for my Carrot Cake :D

Mr. Popcorn Robot loves Carrot Cake!

The recipe was unusually healthy. There was no need for butter but it was replaced with vegetable oil. Instead of using plain flour, I decided to use the healthy wholemeal flour! This is a live example of girls and their obsession with healthy ingredients to bake/cook unhealthy food. (:

Anyways, wholemeal flour is recommended to replace plain flour. Substitute maybe ½ a cup of plain flour for wholemeal flour. Wholemeal flour is not only healthy, but it gives a nutty flavour to cookies or cakes. As I only had one egg in my fridge, I could only make 3 ramekins of carrot cake.

Surprisingly, my second attempt of making a cake turned out well. Why was it a surprise to me? Because I tried making wholemeal banana cake for the first attempt and it failed miserably. My sister and my mom were so pleased with the carrot cake that they wanted more. But there was only 3 ramekins. ):

So, I decided to go to http://community.livejournal.com/bakebakebake/ as recommended by Women’s Weekly for people who simply love baking. That community is simply such a joy such for me! As a amateur in baking, I cannot follow these hard recipes by renowned chefs. But the recipes stated in this community were quite simple. I managed to source for easy recipes but sounded astonishingly delicious.

As I had no egg or butter in my fridge, I had to source for recipes that did not need these ingredients.

I managed to find the recipe for my favourite cheesecake, which is tofu cheesecake! (: This tofu cheesecake is healthy as instead of using cheese or oreo cookies, it uses tofu as a top substitute. I managed to bake granola biscuits as the base of my cheesecake. Sounds healthy, right? (: Instead of using sugar, I used honey as it is a better substitute. The tofu cheesecake was relatively easy to make as I only need to blend the stated ingredients and pour it on top of my granola biscuit base (:

Tofu Cheesecake!

Fruit Paradise Decoration For my Tofu Cheesecake!

Fruity Sunshine Rays Tofu Cheesecake!

Also, I managed to do a batch of raisin cookies. Initially, I got quite turned off by the idea of putting soya milk as one of the ingredients. Last time for the first attempt of the wholemeal banana cake, I used soya milk, as the result was horrible as the oil from the soya milk could not blend in well with the cake and the texture of the banana cake was not moist but hard because the soya milk could not give the cake a creamy feel. Anyhow, I did my batch of raisin cookies and once again, voila! It was crispy on the outside and moist in the inside! I loved the raisin cookies!

cookies with sunmaid raisin sunshine! :D

I tried to make another batch of cookies, oatmeal cookies as well as jam cookies. The oatmeal cookies tasted rather bland and a little difficult to chew as I did not use the instant oats but I used the wholegrain oats which needed a longer time to bake. The jam in the middle section of the cookie gave it a sweet taste to it, however, it was not cloyingly sweet but it tasted just nice. (:

Jam And Oatmeal Cookies (:

All these recipes also suited my dad’s palates as he has diabetes and the ingredients used were not granulated sugar or castor sugar but honey or brown sugar.

If I could have a dream, I would love to be a stay-home mom and bake for my family! HAHA!

Cheezelmomeezel,
Cereal

Friends

2009-11-20T06:39:00.000-08:00

Today, as I was sorting out my 2008 and 2009 photos. It was seriously astonishing how people change! The changes are due to their appearances as well as their characters.

There are people who often appeared in my 2008 photos but have yet disappeared when the New Year (2009) began. Yet, there are people who have remained during the both years. In addition to the 2009 collection, there were new faces whom I’ve tried hard to keep in contact with.

It amazes me how the friends whom I was not even close with during the secondary school years are my good friends during these polytechnic years. Even though we belonged to the same school (SCGS), the classes were probably in close proximity, but yet, our paths never crossed till we entered into polytechnic. Example of these friends are Xinyan, Zhiying and Audrie. Although we did not belong in the same polytechnics or junior colleges, we were closer than we were during the SCGS times.

zhiying and i (2007)

zhiying and i(2009)

It is also fascinating that I’ve still managed to keep in contact with some friends ever since primary and secondary school. Jazreel…my primary 2 hello kitty friend. Yvonne, my primary 4 friend, we created this campfire which was made of straws for our first primary 4 project. Abigail, my desert buddy as well as Saturday Morning Walks buddy. Gloria, my big sister who has always been there for me since the day I met her. Amelia, this funny valentine's day dinner girl as well as bangkok FACEB buddy! Angela, whoooo, this best friend of mine.. there were so many struggles and differences we faced during the NCC days, but we’ve really persevered till today (: I still remember the day when Angela and I were separated. When she was posted to St. Andrews Junior College and I went to Serangoon Junior College, we spent many hours crying on the phone, I was sitting in my room and she was crying at her house car park area.

abigail and i(beginning of 2009)

abigail and i (end of 2009)

amelia, jazreel and i (2007)

amelia, jazreel and i (2009)

angela, emily and i (2007)

angela and i (2009)

Whether or not these friends last till the day I breathe my last breath, I’m not exactly sure myself. But they were definitely friends that were blessed by God. (:

My Love For Food

2009-11-06T19:42:00.001-08:00

This is about my ravings about deserts and other food. I just came back from breakfast at Shunfu Mart with my dad and sister. I tried the abacus yam balls, it was $3 a plate! What a rip-off. The mushroom pieces weren’t big enough for the juices to penetrate into the mushrooms, but yet at the same time, the yam balls were smooth and tasty though.

Due to my dissatisfaction about my breakfast, (breakfast is the meal where I happily gorge myself) I decided to try oneh oneh from “Bake Fresh” by Tina Sum as well as the egg tarts. I think I have a fetish for egg tarts. Be it Portuguese egg tarts or the normal bright yellow ones, whenever my eyes are fixed on them, I just have to taste them.

Let me first comment about the oneh oneh. At first, I had my doubts about it, as it had looked pathetically small. The tag in front of the oneh oneh stated “3 for $1”, I asked the shopowner if it was tasty, she smiled at me and nodded her head. I thought to myself, “Since I had asked such a rhetorical question, I have to purchase it now.” So, it was more of an unwilling purchase by a reluctant customer. I also bought the cute bright yellow egg tart.

I decided to leave the egg tart alone first and devour the oneh oneh. I had wanted to leave the best for the last. I bit into the green ball with white coconut around it. It tasted good. It was succulent and the brown sauce was flowing down my throat in a satisfying manner. Initially, I wanted to save the other 2 for my project work later. But temptation had set in and I finished them off. Next up was the egg tart. Much to my disappointment, the crust wasn’t crispy and the egg filling was not cloyingly sweet. Not that I like my egg filling to be too sugary, but it just did not have much sweet taste to it.

It’s nearly impossible to find a good egg tart in Singapore though. Although, I had eaten one at the Takashimaya food fair. It had cost me $2 a piece but yet, the crust was thick and crispy and the egg filling was moist and sweet.

If I could choose, I would rather have deserts as my regular meals. But that is if provided I do not balloon up after the sweet main courses.

I remember a few weeks ago, I met up with Abigail to eat at Miss Clarity’s Café at Purvis Street. We ordered the caramel steamer, banana tart, mud ooze, bread and butter pudding as well as rhum baba.

The caramel steamer was nothing to boast about. But the banana tart was simply gorgeous. The tart was baked to a beautiful brown colour and the heat from the baked tart and bananas combined with the cold vanilla ice cream was the greatest match ever. It’s still my most favourite desert to date. Abigail and I could not stop “ooh”-ing and “aah”-ing at the deserts. We set our eyes on the mud ooze, which was literally oozing out chocolate from the chocolate brownie. Once the vanilla ice cream and the mud ooze goes into your mouth, you can immediately feel the sensation of happiness going down into your stomach. The ice cream immediately melts into your mouth, mixing together with the chocolate. The last desert we were impressed with was the bread and butter pudding, which was Abigail’s favourite. I loved how moist the desert was. Especially when we ate the pudding together with the special sauce, the combination of the two was good for our palates.

The desert that I was looking forward to but was deeply disappointed was the Rhum Baba. It looked great, it had two creamish white cakes with light brown sides and cream with berries coulisse. I suppose it could only satisfy the prepubescent, it showed goodness but tasted really weird. The cakes were rock hard and the cream was not cold. In addition, the sugar syrup that drenched the cakes was awful.

But all in all, the deserts from Miss Clarity’s were great. Next up, we went to search for the famous “Food For Thought” which was near Purvis Street. We opened the doors and the whole cosy café was filled with the aroma of baked pizzas. Although Abigail and I were only searching for deserts, the pizzas were tempting enough. The boss at the café was a nice gentleman who offered his advice on which deserts we should choose. I was enticed by the red velvet cake with cream cheese. But as we decided we wanted something different, we left the café but felt guilty due to the boss’ nice attitude towards his customers. Abigail and I made a pact to go back and patronise that place next time.

We went to Jidechi and decided to order their favourite desert, durian Puree served with fresh durian. Although the desert suited our palates, but perhaps we had previously stuffed ourselves too much, hence the durian puree was unable to satisfy both of us.

Deserts were made for mankind to get pleasure from. Hopefully, I can get my hands on the red velvet cake with cream cheese soon!

Cheezelmomeezel,
Cereal

God - the One who was there, is there, and will always be there for me :D

2009-10-25T00:30:00.000-07:00

As this new semester begins, I find myself getting hit by obstacles after obstacles. Despite the first few challenges faced, I find God’s comfort in these friendship challenges. But truly to God’s grace, because of these cold wars, my friend was able to see God’s love through me. I really feel that I’ve made a difference in someone’s life! At least I didn’t just go through my poly years without impacting anyone. (:

Everything that I’ve gotten for the past semesters should be the past… I have to look forward and trust God.

“But forget all that – it is nothing compared to what I am going to do. For I am about to do something new. See, I have already begun. Do you not see it?” Isaiah 43: 18 & 19

Plus, God’s promises are my armour and shield! (:

“When you go through deep waters, I will be with you. When you go through rivers of difficulties, you will not drown…” Isaiah 43: 2

Every time when a new semester begins, I find myself picking up the pieces from the past semester. I begin to wonder what was it I did right for the previous semester to be able to get good grades. Somehow or another, the pieces of the puzzle start to form a picture and I am finally able to see that it’s God’s net that is the one who catches me whenever I fall and rebounds me back to the ground.

Who am I by Casting Crowns

Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the Bright and Morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart

Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are

I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
Vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours

Who am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love and watch me rise again
Who am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me

Woo~ I love this song a lot… It begins to remind me that I am nothing without God. Humans are forgetful people by nature… I need constant reminder to go back to God with gratitude for all the things that He has done for me.

“But I am like an olive tree, thriving in the house of God. I will always trust in God’s unfailing love. I will praise you forever, O God, for what You have done…” Psalm 52 : 8 & 9

(: Okay, moving on to another topic… Today was the first time I spoke to Sister Cassie! She’s down-to-earth and a really sweet person. I feel really glad that she’s getting engaged despite everything that the couple has gone through. What doesn’t kill you will only make you stronger. (:

Since I’m on the topic of love, I shall ponder upon what happened recently… (okay, I’m relieved and glad that no one reads my blog.) How does one feel when the person you have liked before has a partner? I mean… regardless of whether the feelings have faded or are still evidently there… there is a pinch, right? Suddenly, I feel horrible.

God!!! Please remind me that You are the only One that lasts forever. Love? No! Concentrate on God. I’ve managed to convince myself that it is not possible for anyone (or at least anyone I liked) to have interest in me.

As sad as it sounds, there are some perks to singlehood (:

God says in 1 Cor 7:34
“In the same way, a woman who is no longer married or has never been married can be devoted to the Lord and holy in body and in spirit.”

People say, God has planned someone for each and every one of His children. But… I guess, I am different. O.o

God bless you all people who are having partners! I believe love does exist, but apparently, it cannot be found in mine.

God bless people like me who are single! 1 Cor 7 : 35 “I am saying this for your benefit, not to place restrictions on you. I want you to do whatever will help you serve the Lord best, with as few distractions as possible.”

Cheezelmomeezel,
Cereal Thiang

Look at the bright side of life, Thiang Pi Pa...

-Titleless-

2009-10-13T04:20:00.000-07:00

O Holy Night - MercyMe

O Holy Night! The stars are brightly shining,
It is the night of the dear Saviour's birth.
Long lay the world in sin and error pining.
Till He appeared and the Spirit felt its worth.
A thrill of hope the weary world rejoices,
For yonder breaks a new and glorious morn.
Fall on your knees! Oh, hear the angel voices!
O night divine, the night when Christ was born;
O night, O Holy Night , O night divine!
O night, O Holy Night , O night divine!

When this song was randomly played on my iTunes, my memories went back to the Christmas session my cell celebrated together. Many things have happened ever since then. There are the things that should have happened and things that should not have happened.

I’m trying to think of how to put them into words… Have these different occurrences cause me to be disappointed? Yes, they have. Sometimes, when all these different battles come, there is a tendency to forget who God is.

But yet, God reminds me once again… “ ‘I am the Alpha and the Omega – the beginning and the end.’ says the Lord God. ‘I am the one who is, who always was, and who is still to come – the Almighty One.’ ” Rev 1:9

Many trials may come, dryness… not knowing what to do next for God… stuck in the same place and waiting… But these two songs taught me something new...

Heart of Worship – Hillsong United

when the music fades
all is stripped away
and i simply come
longing just to bring
something that's of worth
that will bless your heart

i'll bring you more than a song
for a song in itself
is not what you have required
you search much deeper within
through the way things appear
you're looking into my heart

I'm coming back to the heart of worship
and it's all about you
It's all about you, Jesus
I'm sorry Lord for the things i've made it
when it's all about you
it's all about you, Jesus

King of endless worth
no one could express
how much you deserve
though i'm weak and poor
all i have is yours
every single breath

This song reminds me of this verse
“…I am the one who searches out the thoughts and intentions of every person…” Rev 2: 23

Yes, not everything that I do may be excellent from a human’s perspective. But as long as I put in my best for God, that is all that He needs.

I Offer My Life – Don Moen

All that I am, all that I have
I lay them down before you, oh Lord
All my regrets, all my acclaims
The joy and the pain, I'm making them yours

Lord, I offer my life to you
Everything I've been through
Use it for your glory
Lord I offer my days to you
Lifting my praise to you
As a pleasing sacrifice
Lord I offer you my life

Things in the past, things yet unseen
Wishes and dreams that are yet to come true
All of my heart, alll of my praise
My heart and my hands are lifted to you

Lord, I offer my life to you
Everything I've been through
Use it for your glory
Lord I offer my days to you
Lifting my praise to you
As a pleasing sacrifice
Lord I offer you my life

What can we give
That you have not given?
And what do we have
That is not already yours?
All we possess
Are these lives we're living
That's what we give to you, Lord

Cheezelmomeezel,
Cereal

Little Cream Puff

2009-10-07T21:05:00.000-07:00

Once about a time, there lived a little cream puff. One day, the cream puff cream gets sucked up by the world.

Without the cream, can the little cream puff still be called a cream puff? No. It will just be called a puff. The cream is what makes the cream puff special.

The little cream puff went to find the maker, the creator, of the cream puffs to ask for cream. But the little cream puff just couldn’t find the maker. It hopped everywhere. It went to cake lane, it ran to doughnut road, it skipped to sugar roll street.

The little cream puff got really tired. It sat on the road and started crying. It thought to itself, “maker…maker…where are you? I need you so desperately.”

Suddenly, it felt someone scooping it into his hands. It was the maker!

The maker said, “little cream puff, I was with you all along. I am still with you. But you were searching for me at all the wrong places. Why didn’t you go back to the cream puff house to find me?”

The little cream puff was brought back to the cream puff house and was refilled with custard cream.

A happy ending.

But there are more cream puffs out there that are still searching for the maker at all the wrong places.

Little cream puffs, ask your creator to fill in more cream for you.

OH YOU BRING – HILLSONG UNITED

Oh you bring hope to the hopeless
And light to those in the darkness
And death to life, now I'm alive

Oh you give peace to the restless
And joy to homes that are broken
I see you now, in you I'm found

And you open the door for me
And you lay down your life to set me free
All that I am will serve you lord

Oh you fill those who are empty
And rescue those in the valley
And through it all you calm my soul

Oh now you find me in my weakness
And heal the wounds of my heartache
And worship for you in spirit and truth

And you open the door for me
And you lay down your life to set me free
All that I am will serve you lord

And you open my eyes to see
All the wondering all of christ in me
Jesus you're everything I need

(Worship)

All honor
All glory
All praise to you (repeat)

And you open the door for me
And you lay down your life to set me free
All that I am will serve you lord

And you open my eyes to see
All the wondering all of christ in me
Jesus you're everything I need

LOVE

2009-09-29T10:15:00.000-07:00

Love is a word that is often misused by people. There are many interpretations for this word. Recently, I had a dream regarding this topic on love. Yes, I agree that it feels good to be loved. But I feel that love with the opposite gender will make you feel euphoric one moment and the next moment, you’re deep in the pits. I consider that it’s a similar case as a person who has been diagnosed with bipolar disorder. Ughhh.

My friends who are attached always encourage me to never get attach. I feel that it’s quite hilarious whenever they tell me that, since it is quite ironic. Anyways, I managed to convince myself that I will never be able to find a partner. I will probably bore the person to death. Plus, being together with someone requires a person to change. People who are usually merry and cheerful will have a frown plastered on their face whenever they’re in a dilemma of falling in love.

There’s another kind of love I’ve discovered, the love to give without expecting any returns. During this semester holidays, I’ve been quite free. Usually whenever I have the long term breaks, I would work part-time jobs so that my mom will be pleased. But this time, I got fired hence I went to do community service to fill the free slots in my schedule. On Mondays, I will go to the Institute of Mental Health to help the patients in their art and craft. This coming Thursday, I will help helping the kindergarten kids. I find this type of love more meaningful than the first.

Last but not least, there is a love that I long to be taken deeper. But yet, I find that there is no longer the desire and passion to chase after Him (my God, my Saviour). I know I’ve disappointed God many times. But yet, He still remembers that I’m His daughter, that I’m still a child of God. I yearn to repay His love…but yet in my heart, the zeal is no longer there.

Cheezelmomeezel,
Cereal Thiang

My Amazing September

2009-09-17T20:53:00.000-07:00

September 2009 is simply the best months of the year (: I can name 6reasons why!

Firstly, it is the month where I can finally remove my braces!!! AAAAAAHHHH!!!

Secondly, it is the month where I went on my first overseas trip, taking zee airplane, after more than 12 years!

Thirdly, I had an amazing time at Bangkok with the FACEB clique.

Fourthly, God has blessed me with a job at Miss Clarity Café.

Fifthly, I will be getting my Foochow Association Award.

Sixthly, I got my results back, which has been blessed by God. GPA = 4.0, 4As with Distinctions. Just when I thought I would do badly for this semester because I had study the bare minimum for each of the examination paper as well as I was extremely distracted with the preparations for the Bangkok trip, but God has amazed me with His power (:

Principles of Marketing (PMKT) examination paper was the worst paper I have ever had. I had spent 1 hour on the first PMKT question as the invigilator had made many noises and movements and caused me distracted. I wanted to cry because I simply had no time for the rest of my other 3 questions. I hyperventilated during the paper because I was so nervous and scared that I will do badly. After the paper, I teared at home but I surrendered the paper to God. During my periods of anxiety, God had told me in Psalms 121: 1-2 “I look up to the mountains – does my help come from there? My help comes from the Lord who made Heavens and the earth.” I got an A for that paper (:

Business Communications 2, there was no examination paper for this subject but during the first table topic test, I was so nervous, I couldn’t think straight. The following week for my second table topic test, God had reminded me of my most favourite verse. Isaiah 41:10 “Fear not, for I am with you; Be not dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you, Yes, I will help you, I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.” With such great encouragement from God, I was able to stand in front of the class and deliver my speech with confidence. However, I never expect myself to get an A, lest an AD. (:

For French, I seriously thought I would fail this subject because I felt that I couldn’t enunciate any of the foreign language words. I battled with the difficulty of writing French as well. But God had surprised me with an AD.

When I went back to my TAWG on 21st August 2009, I read what I wrote. God spoke to me on the bus after my Finance International Trade paper. I had just finished my first examination paper and God told me that even before I ask God for help, He already knows I need help. Even if I don’t request for His help, He will help me no matter what. Matt 7:9-11 “You parents – if your children ask for a loaf of bread, do you give them a stone instead? Or if they ask for a fish, do you give them a snake? Of course not! So if you sinful people know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Heavenly Father give good gifts to those who ask Him.” An effective prayer is having a childlike faith to believe God hears your prayer and trusting that He will help you simply because He wants the best for you.

But through it all, after receiving my results and feeling elated, God reminded me that I have to work equally hard to get into the Kingdom of God. Results, achievements and awards do not matter at the end of the day. Ultimately, I’m still running the race for God. Spending the rest of my days in the courts of God is my main goal. (: Everything that I achieve on earth is nothing compared to the days where I enter Heaven and spend the rest of my life with God.

Cheezeelmomeezel,
Cereeeeal loves Christ!

Faithful and Fellowship

2009-09-10T20:02:00.000-07:00

Hello,

These few days, God has been teaching me about remaining faithful and remaining in fellowship with God. Yes, it is easy to get salvation because Jesus has already done the work for us. But it is ultimately up to us to maintain it.

It is sad when you see believers who think they love God based on their weekly church attendance.

Just like how a pen ink fades away in a book after a long while, will our names fade away from the Book of Life if we do not maintain a close relationship with God?

1 John 2: 24, 25, 28

“So you must remain faithful to what you have been taught from the beginning. If you do, you will remain in fellowship with the Son and with the Father. And in this fellowship, we enjoy the eternal life He promised us.”

“…Remain in fellowship with Christ so that when He returns, you will be full of courage and not shrink back in shame.”

It is also sad to know that there are some believers who suddenly leave church because they feel tired or burnt out. When we are tired, isn’t God our only source of strength?

Why do we leave church, thinking that it’s time to take a break or we will get recharge after a break from church?

Once you fall, ask God for His hand. Don’t pick yourself up on your own.

Roller Coaster

2009-09-07T06:29:00.000-07:00

Last week was an amazing week for me, because I WENT TO BANGKOK!!! It was my first time sitting in the airplane after more than 10 years. I’ve always had the fear of taking aeroplanes, because, when I was young, I took an airplane to Indonesia with my family and my ears were so pain that I ran to the door and wanted to open the door to get out.

The airplane flights were really scary!!! But Amelia, Brandon, Edwin and Chuan Fa were really good people to travel with (:

Amelia gave me a lot of fashion advice as well as helped me to bargain because I always end up getting bullied by the shop owners. -.-

Through this Bangkok experience, I realized many good qualities of these 3 guys .(I doubt I would personally say these to them, otherwise, they will get big heads) They were patient, gentlemanly, respectful and… All in all, they are the type of guys that cannot be found in this world.

After I came back from Bangkok, I had a big major shocking news because I did something wrong in my CCA activity and it had caused a big chaos. Sigh. God will help me solve the problem.

The next day after I came back from Bangkok, I started my first day of work. It was fun and not to mention, the food Miss Clarity Café serves is really delicious! (or rather, smells delicious) I also found out that God had blessed me with this job. On the day that I applied for this job, it was the same day that the counter staff had tendered her resignation due to school attachment. If I had applied a day earlier or later, I wouldn’t have gotten the job.

The next thing I need to do is to get bands for the FACEB Bangkok friends (:

FACEB. (FA.AME.CHER.EDWI.BRANDO)

Cheezelmomeezel,
Cheryl Thiang

my 3 days of spiritual empowerment (:

2009-07-26T05:44:00.000-07:00

This week was one of the most unexpected happening weeks for me! (: I had a list of church activities lined up for me from Friday to Sunday. Initially, I hesitated on going for all of them. But God helped me manage my time well that I was able to go for these events. It was an amazing 3 days of spiritual empowerment!

Friday, I had SP empowerment in church. I learnt about dealing with disappointment and disillusionment. It was very timely indeed. Considering what had happened in my family recently. Refocusing my eyes on God’s covenant and character are very important things that keep my hope alive.

Saturday, I went for the The Zone – Hillsongs United Concert (thank you, Brandon. Even though he won’t be reading this.) It was an amazing praise and worship experience that will never be forgotten. This experience is indeed very different from the ones we have in IGNYTE. Yes, the music by the worship ministry is excellent, but the peoples’ energy is completely different. I’m unsure if it was a hype thing that was going on in the concert. But I know that the pastor’s preaching changed it all. Yes indeed, Singaporeans, especially my generation, are lured into temptations after temptations set up by the devil.

Sunday, I went for PTF, Tenet class as well as service. Ah, all of them were wonderful experiences. There was a change in the atmosphere of the PTF members and I was so excited at the sudden change. It must have been God had spoken to Brother Andrew about the methods on bringing the PTF members to another intercessory prayer level. God works wonders!!! There is much undiscovered potential in PTF and it is up to the leaders and the members to uncover it.

Tenet class, which is very much coincidentally linked to Saturday’s preaching, is about dating and sexuality. It is obvious that dating is the limelight of all youths. But when dating is for the wrong reasons or dating when you are still insecure about yourself is dangerous. I do appreciate my singlehood. It gives me time to think about who God has planned for me, it allows me to exercise patience. Also, waiting for the perfect man allows God to complete me. I, as well as God, will not allow myself to start dating when I’m not completed by God. It is impossible for me to think that by finding a boyfriend means that I’m completed and a whole.

In secondary 4 (before I knew Christ), all my friends knew me as someone who was so anxious to find a boyfriend. I felt so insecure about myself and I wanted that one man to change my insecurity. I wanted that one man to give me love and acceptance.

But after I knew Christ, the desperation wore off. Yes, I liked a guy from church for 11 months. During those periods, God moulded me. From wanting that guy to notice me, to like me, to say that he liked me, it changed to another kind of motivation that activated my passion for Christ.

I can safely say now that I do not like anyone currently as it distracts me from Christ. I have not come to the level whereby I can focus on God as well as a man. Yes, there are sudden feelings that rushes back for the same man (because he is an honourable man of God) but it is better to wait as God has better things waiting for me!

I may not be experienced in dating. But I do know that courtship is not something to be meddled with. In my opinion, it is dating with an eye to marriage. Marriage? Serious? Why so dramatic?

That’s just my opinion, craft yours (:

During service today, I learnt a lot from Pastor Gerald. Yes, I have experienced God’s love and grace. But now it is time to be like the transformed Nicodemus and stand up for Christ especially when He is being persecuted. Nicodemus went all out for Christ even if it meant losing his popularity, losing his position, losing his achievements and the most important of all, losing his life FOR CHRIST!

Before this service, much is unknown about Nicodemus. But there is much to learn. Similar to Saturday’s preaching, these small stories in the Bible are overlooked. But when one carefully studies them carefully, s/he finds treasure.

Indeed, Nicodemus practiced what God said in a verse, “I will show you what it’s like when someone comes to Me, listens to My teaching and then follows it. It is like a person building a house who digs deep and lays a foundation on solid rock. When the floodwaters rise and break against that house, it stands firm because it is well built.” Luke 6:47-48

Amen. (;

Cheezemomeezel,
Cereal

Rev 21:4

2009-07-20T05:47:00.001-07:00

There will be a day – Jeremy Camp

I try to hold on to this world with everything I have
But I feel the weight of what it brings, and the hurt that trys to grab
The many trials that seem to never end, His word declares this truth,
that we will enter in this rest with wonders anew

But I hold on to this hope and the promise that He brings
That there will be a place with no more suffering

There will be a day with no more tears, no more pain, and no more fears
There will be a day when the burdens of this place, will be no more, we’ll see Jesus face to face
But until that day, we’ll hold on to you always

I know the journey seems so long
You feel your walking on your own
But there has never been a step
Where you’ve walked out all alone

Troubled soul don’t lose your heart
Cause joy and peace he brings
And the beauty that’s in store
Outweighs the hurt of life’s sting

I can’t wait until that day where the very one I’ve lived for always will wipe away the sorrow that I’ve faced
To touch the scars that rescued me from a life of shame and misery this is why this is why I sing….

There will be a day with no more tears, no more pain, and no more fears
There will be a day when the burdens of this place, will be no more, we’ll see Jesus face to face

There will be a day, He’ll wipe away the stains, He’ll wipe away the tears, He’ll wipe away the tears…..there will be a day.

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Yesterday was one of the most tiring days of July. But God never fails to remind me of His goodness.

Yes, right now, I may face endless tears that never goes dry.

But God promises, Rev 21:4, “God will wipe every tear from their eyes and there will be no more death, or sorrow, or crying, or pain. All these things will be gone forever.”

AMEN! (:

Cheezelmomeezel,
Cereal

Disappointed with God? Don't be. [:

2009-07-19T01:12:00.000-07:00

During the 18th to the 22nd of every month, it is always the most tiring week.

This month, I broke down.

I have a post-it plastered on my wall above my table. It says, “God will not let anything happen to us in our life unless He has a good purpose for it. Trust God with your circumstances!”

In the midst of all these disappointments, God had shown me a light.

Hebrews 11:13 & 16
“All these people died still believing what God had promised them. They did not receive what was promised, but they saw it all from a distance and welcome it… But they were looking for a better place, a Heavenly Homeland. That is why God is not ashamed to be called their God, for He has prepared a city for them.”

Even though circumstances never seem to be improving, the people in the bible embraced the tough future. Don’t dwell too much on the earthly promises that it causes you to rely on it.

Ask yourself, “What’s the point of having these promises if it causes your relationship with God to deteriorate?”

Woohoo! (:

Whenever something has caused you to be disappointed with God, know that you’re just a foreigner on earth, and you have a heavenly prize waiting for you!

My favourite verse that has carried me through since O levels (:
Isaiah 41:10 lays 5 promises that we should hold deeply in our hearts

1) Fear not, for God is with You

2) Be not dismayed, for He is your God

3) God will strengthen you.

4) Yes, He will help you

5) He will uphold you with your righteous right hand.

Above all else, in every season, in every trouble and circumstance, He is still God, you have a reason to sing and worship.

Cheezelmomeezel,
Cereal

please give me a new revelation..

2009-07-15T00:41:00.000-07:00

On December 2008, I listed four things I wanted to do for God on my desktop, or promises that God had told me.

Things for God:

1. Play guitar for God

2. Water baptism

3. Prayer Task Force Leader

4. Spiritual Parent

All four things have been accomplished. But I ask myself, is it the right time? I asked Taby if I became an SP at the right time, because I really didn’t feel that it’s a good timing at all. Taby’s reply was, “I think it’s the perfect timing.”

Hopefully it really is.

After all these things for God are done, I feel as though there’s nothing left for me to pursue. I’m asking God to give me a new revelation or promise soon..

cheezelmomeezel,

Cereal

2009-07-12T09:27:00.001-07:00

ughh. i just spent my entire Sunday afternoon and night researching on fashion. the bad part is... all these research won't be added to my GPA!

okay, i have to seriously get out of this addiction mode.

i have a fetish for sweet pink items (:

credits to: voguefemme

i simply adore the pink ballerina pumps!

hopefully, i can find the western fashion styles in bangkok as well as kuala lumpur. because it's too expensive and not financial advisable for me to fly off to australia or america to find these street styles.

someone, throw a bag of gold in front of me.

kidding. okay, focus. focus on more important things.

i have 2 tests this week. God, pour Your blessings on this girl who wasted her day away.

cheezelmomeezel,

cereal

die-hard shopping habits

2009-07-10T21:42:00.000-07:00

Rotaract Induction and Installation was over yesterday. I didn’t contribute much to the preparations, I must admit. But during the registration period, it was seriously hectic and my alphabets were so jumbled up that I had difficulty spelling the members’ names. That certainly amused them.

I finally received my Rotaract name cards. It makes me sound oh-so-professional (:

I’m finally done with my Marketing Project as well as Mai’s America Movie Review for my intercultural communication lesson. It’s about a Vietnamese girl who goes to America to further her college and university education. She tries very hard to fit into the American culture and hence experiencing a downward spiral of emotions. I must say, I bow in admiration to those who are able to go to a foreign country alone to study.

I seriously cannot wait for this 3^rd semester to end! In September, I’m going KL with my sister for a few days and in December, I will be going to Bangkok with Jazreel and Meiping. I haven’t taken an airplane in over 12 years? Wish me luckk.

This brings me down to my next point, MONEY. I have to start earning money so that I can spend it on my KL and Bangkok trips! I have to stop shopping in Singapore, since almost everything in imported from Thailand, Hongkong, Korea and more.

I’m dying to go to New York to shop! I was talking to Angela and she was saying that during the sale periods in America, all the big sizes were normally sold out and the Asian sizes are left on the clothes rack. This is so opposite for clothes boutiques in Singapore. All the size 8 and 10 are normally sold out. Pshh.

Singapore girls are seriously getting skinnier. This is frightening.

I’m signing off here. I have to rush through my International Trade Project.

Cheezelmomeezel,
Cereal

a light to guide the nations

2009-06-10T06:02:00.000-07:00

Isaiah 42: 6-7

"I, the Lord, have called you to demonstrate My righteousness. I will take you by hand and guard you, and I will give you to My people, Israel, as a symbol of my covenant with them. And you will be a light to guide the nations. You will open the eyes of the blind. You will free the captives from prison, releasing those who sit in dark dungeons."

amen. (:

i'm going to let my light shine!

2009-06-02T04:03:00.000-07:00

Hillsong Kids - Let Your Light Shine Lyrics

Verse 1:
Crep, creep, creep in the dark fear comes to blow out all your lights.
It doesn't want you telling everybody that Jesus rules, all right!

Chorus:
Let your light shine Whoa
Let your light shine Whoa
Let Your light shine and let Jesus shine through you

Verse 2:
Giant fears are really small when all you see is God
Don't be afraid to stand up tall and give a great big shout

Bridge:
I'm not scared, I'm gonna let my light shine
You're not scared, you're gonna let your light shine
We're not scared, we're gonna let our light shine
Cos Jesus is Lord, and He's gonna let His light shine

i think this song is really cute. (:

it is similar to matt 5:16

"In the same way let your light shine in front of people. Then they will see the good that you do and praise your Father in heaven"

cheezelmomeezel,

cereal

this is His command

2009-06-01T07:00:00.000-07:00

Hillsong - Through It All

You are forever in my life
You see me through the seasons
Cover me with Your hand
And lead me in Your righteousness
And I look to You
And I wait on You

I will sing to You, Lord
A hymn of love
For Your faithfulness to me
I’m carried in everlasting arms
You’ll never let me go
Through it all

through my difficult times, Lord, i trust that You'll never let me go.

"this is my command - be strong and courageous. do not be afraid or discouraged. for the Lord is with you wherever you go." joshua 1:9

"fear not, for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you, yes I will help you. I will uphold you with my righteous right hand" isaiah 41:10

these are His promises. IM NOT AFRAID OF THE GIANTS IN MY LIFE!!

FANG MA GUO LAI BAAAAAA!!

because my God will protect me!

cheezelmomeezel,

cereal

i want to fall in love with You.

2009-05-27T00:35:00.000-07:00

Love Song for a Saviour - Jars of Clay

...

Someday she'll trust Him
And learn how to see Him
Someday He'll call her
And she will come running
Fall in His arms, the tears will fall down
And she'll pray

I want to fall in love with You

i'm going to make my strong stand.. for God.

2009-05-25T03:36:00.000-07:00

I’ve encountered many disappointing issues. One of the issues was regarding philandering fools. I can’t... no, I abhor men who can’t seem to draw a boundary with their girl friends. Worse still, I despise men who treat girls like items... they date several girls at one go, trying out to see who is the most suitable for them.

But I realized, through these disappointing issues, that I’ve grown too comfortable with my CCA friends. I did not make my strong stand for God. Due to this closeness, I asked myself, would I allow myself to conform to these worldly patterns?

I was irate about the situation, but at the same time, dismal as well. But as I was praying, I realized that Jesus is control over all situations.

Just as how Jesus had loved Judas who had betrayed Him, I shall learn from His grace, mercy and love.

Help me to see things in Your perspective, God...

my love for pasar malam (:

2009-05-23T01:05:00.000-07:00

Woo. I really should consider starting my pastry shop cum drinks stall. HAHA. I just spent 1 and a half hours boiling barley for my family (due to Singapore’s blistering temperatures) My sister commented its one of the best barley drinks she had ever drank. (:

Also, on some days, I would serve my dad black coffee and my mom green tea. -.- You can call me the drinks girl.

Woo. My dream is to set up a bakery stall after I graduate from University (: Many people in the world work just for money alone. When you see their fatigue and stress, you realize it is not worth it at all.

I rather work for my passion and enjoy what I will be doing for my next 30 years. :D

Ohhh. Do you know I really love Pasar Malams xD there’s one just outside my estate now! You can imagine how elated I feel. WAHAH.

My favourites are the RAMLY BURGER!! AND THE CUP CORN!!

I really love pasar malams because of the stalls sell unique (and amusing) items. Winnie the pooh alarm clock, sesame street uno cards, funny looking bears and hand puppets, cute pyjamas and the list goes on... But my favourite part is the food!! :D

Roti John, Roti Jala, Muah Chee, Colourful Steam Cakes, many kinds of Sausages (black pepper chicken sausage, char siew sausage, cheese sausage, Taiwan sausage), fried fish fillet, Cotton Candy, Popcorn and many more!

Also, the blinding lights coming from the food vendors’ stalls make me feel a little nostalgic. Shunfu estate had only held pasar malam twice. On both occasions, my maid would follow me down and buy the different types of food so that we can try them together. But today, I went down alone, wishing that she was there with me. But i guess not...

What a weird way to end this entry.

Anyway, God bless! :D

lalalalelelelololo

2009-05-17T07:45:00.001-07:00

recently, i keep on breaking several glass items.. firstly, a brand new strawberry jam, then i went to NTUC to buy another type of jam. and i broke the brand new raspberry jam again. -.- yesterday, i broke a cup. aaaand today, i broke another cup whilst spilling my cereal drink on myself ): eesh.

feeling very tired.. im going to have 3 cca meetings this week. monday, thursday and fridays. ughh. i was telling God that, i really desire to be His leader. even if i get a high position in my cca, so what? i don't feel the fulfillment.

but i believe, if i do God's works, there's such a pleasure and excitement of accomplishing it.

i do know that God has placed me to be a community service director for a reason. so no complaining, cheryl. :X

hoohoo, good news, i think ive finally flee from the infatuation i had for 11 months through God's grace! :D i've been struggling for a long time. but when i surrendered it to God, He took it away from me. (:

"we do not have a High Priest who is unable to sympathize with our weakness, but we have One who has been tempted in every way, just as we are - yet was without sin. let us then approach the throne of grace with confidence, so that we may receive mercy and find grace to help us in our time of need." (heb 4:15-16)

keep my heart pure for God :D

it wasn't easy. but i know that God wants me to let go of him so that i can focus on God alone and realign my direction back to God.

and its great to know that this testimony of mine is able to help another church friend of mine. there's this particular sentence i love a lot, "if God is not center of your life, the guy you like would be more of a burden than a blessing."

as my favourite phrase goes, cheezelmomeezel!!

God bless you all [:

thank you, dad.

2009-05-08T22:54:00.001-07:00

Today, I had lunch with my dad. It’s been a long time since I actually dared to. If I eat with my dad, there must at least be a person accompanying us. (eg. my mother, brother or sister)

My dad is the only person who remembers all my food likes and dislikes. I never appreciated this point until last year.

We were talking and he was really proud that I made it into the Director’s List. Initially, he was scolding me for being really lazy in the past and that I had never took my work seriously. But, his tone suddenly changed. He said, “But your mindset suddenly changed. And I don’t know why.”

I smiled. (It is true, ever since I rededicated my life to God in August 2007; I suddenly changed from a super lazy student to a girl who worked for her grades. All the teachers and family members noticed that change. But I never expected my dad to notice, since he was never around.)

I never made my dad proud before, it was always my brother that did him proud.

Suddenly, there was a hawker that sat on our table. He turned to the hawker and beamed, “This is my daughter. She’s the youngest.”

will i dance for you, Jesus?

2009-05-08T19:21:00.000-07:00

I can only imagine - mercyme

I can only imagine what it will be like, when I walk by Your side...
I can only imagine, what my eyes will see, when Your Face is before me!
I can only imagine. I can only imagine.
Surrounded by Your Glory, what will my heart feel?
Will I dance for you, Jesus? Or in awe of You, be still?
Will I stand in Your presence, or to my knees will I fall?
Will I sing 'Hallelujah!'? Will I be able to speak at all?
I can only imagine! I can only imagine!

I can only imagine, when that day comes, when I find myself standing in the Son!
I can only imagine, when all I will do, is forever, forever worship You!
I can only imagine! I can only imagine!

Surrounded by Your Glory, what will my heart feel?

Will I dance for you, Jesus? Or in awe of You, be still?
Will I stand in Your presence, or to my knees will I fall?
Will I sing 'Hallelujah!'? Will I be able to speak at all?
I can only imagine! Yeah! I can only imagine!

Surrounded by Your Glory, what will my heart feel?

Will I dance for you, Jesus? Or in awe of You, be still?
Will I stand in Your presence, or to my knees will I fall?
Will I sing 'Hallelujah!'? Will I be able to speak at all?
I can only imagine! Yeah! I can only imagine!

I can only imagine! Yeah! I can only imagine!! Only imagine!!!
I can only imagine.

I can only imagine, when all I do is forever, forever worship You!
I can only imagine."

(:

come home running

2009-04-26T07:23:00.000-07:00

chris tomlin - come home running

Oh heart of mine, why must you stray?
From one so fair you run away
And one more time you have to pay
The heaviness of needless shame

Oh heart of mine, come back home
You've been too long out on your own
And He's been there all along
Watching for you down the road

So come home running
His arms are open wide
His name is Jesus
He understands
He is the answer
You are looking for
So come home running
Just as you are

Oh child of God so dearly loved
And ransomed by the Savior's blood
And called by name, Daughter and Son
Wrapped in the robe of righteousness

So come home running
His arms are open wide
His name is Jesus
He understands
He is the answer
You are looking for
So come home running
Just as you are

my friend, jazreel, introduced this song to me.

dear friends, if youre looking for comfort. Jesus wants you to come back to Him.

come just as you are.

He's waiting for you. He knows what you're going through. (:

everlasting God. never changing God.

2009-04-24T21:29:00.000-07:00

Everlasting God by Ross Parsley

one thing i know that i have found.. through all the troubles that surrounds..

You are the rock that never fails.. You never fail..

one thing i know that i believe, through every blessing ive received..

You are the only one that stays.. You always stay

You never change..

Youre the same..

You are the everlasting God

You will remain after the day is gone and things above have past..

everlasting God.

this song really touched me because when things dont go right in my life, i still know that God will never change and God is faithful to His promises (psalm 145)

whatever He has promised me before, it will never change, just because things dont look pretty.

i realized that yes, i can depend on my friends for comfort and encouragement. but God is the only one that will stay behind and look after me.

God: My daughter, everything will be fine.

Young Cheryl: yes, Daddy. i believe.

God. i will always believe in You.

sad yet still trusting

2009-03-24T00:11:00.001-07:00

today, as i was going to do my module enrolment. in the morning (during games day) i was depressed because i thought i could not be in the same class as my clique because they chose FIT (financial international trade) and i chose IEF (international economic and finance) last time.

but another of my friend told me that the previous selections of IEF and FIT did not matter and now we can reselect again. i was filled with joy. hence i decided that i would forgo my passion, which is economics, and go ahead to join my clique.

to my dismay, when it was time to enrol into the classes, my computer jammed. i could not get into the class (TB09) my clique was intending to go. everyone of them got in except for me. as it was still jamming for 10 mins, i was tearing and shouting, "God God why did you let this happen to me!"

TB09 (FIT class) was filled and i just chose TB01 (IEF class). my friend, taby, told me, maybe God wants you to get out of your comfort zone. and i thought, okay, maybe she's right.

i burst into tears when i finally realized that i could not be in the same class as my clique. i was going to be all alone.

but God reminded me of Jeremiah 29:11 i believe God has plans to prosper me and not to harm me. it is going to be difficult to go through the next semester all by myself. but im going to trust in God's plans.

Romans 8:28, i love God, i believe everything He has done is good.

hallelujah, Jesus.

my exam results [:

2009-03-20T22:57:00.000-07:00

the first sentence: ALL GLORY TO GOD.

Thanks be to God, who always causes me to triumph and overcome (:

the day before yesterday, i was praying fervently for my results. God's peace was poured unto me. i felt calm and knowing that i would do well. it wasn't the confidence of my own abilities, for God said take no confidence from the flesh.

in the modules where i scored distinctions, BMGT and MAEC, they were hardly the modules i expected an A grade.

in BMGT module, i didnt attend the lectures nor did i pay attention during the tutorials. (i tried, but it was too boring) plus, i only had 4 hours to study for the BMGT paper. i was so scared because i did not want to get below a B grade. i cried out to God to help me and i went to bed after studying. i believed that God will enable me to do well. during the paper itself, i could really sense that it was not by my strength that enabled me to do this paper but it was by the Holy Spirit that was teaching and guiding me.

God has heard and answered my desperate cries. (:

in MAEC module, the paper was incredibly difficult, it was the most difficult paper set in the past 3 years. and i thought, "oh great. there goes my A grade." but i prayed to God and submitted all my worries to God. i never expected an AD, but God knew how much i loved economics and i believe He blessed me.

in DSS module, i didn't understand anything at all. i did not do my tutorials, i had attempt, but i didn't know how to do any of them. a few days before the project submission, i suddenly understood the concepts. and a day before the project submission, my group realized that we did not do 60% of the project and we had to rush through it. and amazingly, my teacher praised my group, telling us "your project is one of the best in the cohort." thanks to God. (: we also had a major exam on a monday. the day before (which is sunday) was the day for the preparation of exam. initially i didn't want to go for the first SP class, but i chose to because this verse struck me hard. "keep the Sabbath day holy. don't pursue your own interests on that day..." (isa 58:13) i was thinking, oh crap, fine. i will go for the SP class then come back to study for the exam.

but God did bless me, because suddenly, i knew how to do all the tutorials. even the challenging ones. it really amazed me how God had changed an IT idiot into an IT genius on that day of the exam.

initially, i was setting my expectations for my grades.

MAEC: A, BLAW: A, POA: A, BMGT: B+, LMS: C, IAC: A, DSS: B.

GPA: 3.58

as i was looking at it, i was like.. aiyo, seems so impossible. tsk.

but what i got for the results.

MAEC: AD, BLAW: A, POA: A, BMGT: AD, LMS: C+, IAC: A, DSS: A.

GPA: 3.875

my God is a God of possibilities. there's nothing impossible for Him. He has given more than what i had expected.

could i have done it myself?

i think not.

cheezelmomeezel,

cereal

(cheryl with the c)

2009-03-19T01:15:00.001-07:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_enkl4jCzMM

one of my cell group friends shared this video with the cell. as i begin to watch it, i started to cry. i realized that the devil's plans were so evident in this world.

there's always a question that i ask God, why does evil seem to overpower the good?

as you begin to watch this video, its about how the devil use busyness and the lack of love to create chaos in peoples' lives.

i've told someone before, that i may quit rotaract club and lose my position if i find myself losing my interaction time with God. people may argue that, why? aren't your cca points more important for your university admission?

in the past, i used to always think about getting a high GPA and great CCA leadership position. but chasing after all those worldly status and recognition made me feel immensely tired. i asked myself, "so what if i attain these? why am i trying to gain my self-worth through these?"

i'm not saying don't do well in your studies, don't do well in your CCA. yes, do well in them but don't put your focus on them because it will only make you very exasperated.

reflect through this word, BUSY.

B - eing

U- nder

S - atan's

Y - oke

i don't want to meet God and hear Him say, "you've been busy, you've been under the devil's yoke." but instead, i want to hear Him say, "well done, my good and faithful servant."

now that sentence gives me comfort and cheer. [:

MISS SWAN [:

2009-02-18T00:05:00.000-08:00

hey!! you guys have any time to relax before the examinations. watch miss swan!! (: it makes me LAUGHHHH.

this is my favourite! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xZ9lb319uZQ (miss swan at the candy shop)

watch the miss swan at atm as well! HAHAHA!! do..doo..dooo..GOO!!

watch the miss swan at customs!! HAHAHAHA!! HOKEY POKEY DANCE! :D

OH YESS!! WATCH THE ONE WHERE MISS SWAN is at the airplane :D

OH!! THE MOVIE THEATRE ONE! HAHAHAHA. oh my goodness watch all of them (:

HE LOOKING LIKE A MAN!

OKAY, ALL THE BEST FOR EXAMS!

THANKS TO YOU! :D

Savior King moves my mountains.

2009-02-15T07:25:00.000-08:00

apologies to friends who don't feel comfortable tagging because most of my posts are about my faith in God.

haha, but don't worry. i will still tag your blogs because i care for you guys.

this comment is especially for my dear zhiying. (:

from the start of this year, it was periods of conquest. i would feel strong to overcome my obstacles. but somehow, the devil would remind me of how i have failed. i was down and disappointed with myself, convinced that i was unworthy of God's love. there was no desire to seek after God, i deliberated walking away from God.

but there's this hillsong album called the "i heart revolution." it was really touching when you hear the different nations sing and praise the same God. people who are living in countries that lack their daily necessities could still shout for God. when you hear the people's desire to worship in spirit and in truth, there's no way to describe that feeling.

and i want to be part of this generation that stands for God.

this is one of the album songs that really got me dancing (:

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What The World Will Never Take

With all I'm holding inside
With all my hopes and desires
And all the dreams that I've dreamt

With all I'm hoping to be
And all that the world will bring
And all that fails to compare

You say You want all of me
I wouldnt have it any other way

I've got a Saviour and He's living in me
WHOA

I wana know
I wana know You today

And You're the best thing that has happened to me
And the world will never take
The world will never take You away

No-one could ever take You away

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my God still deserves all the praises despite my circumstances. (:

although my sins are red like scarlet, He cleanses me so that they can be as pure as snow.

my one desire: to fall in love with my Saviour.

HALLELUJAH!

I SHALL OVERCOME ALL OBSTACLES.

becausee... my God is mighty to save. He can move my mountains.

i'm in ngee ann to fulfill God's destiny for me [:

2009-01-24T07:17:00.000-08:00

Yesterday, as I was brushing my teeth, God painted a picture for me, He asked me to imagine a poor man that is very hungry. He finds God and receives salvation. His walk with God is strong, but all of a sudden, he receives a job and gets a high positioning managerial post. Instead of going to church on Sundays, he chooses to work in his office to get extra pay.

God reverts the attention back to Him and asked me, this man has 2 choices, he could’ve chosen to walk away and say “when I was thirsty, God took away my thirst. When I was hungry, God fed me. When I was poor, God made me rich. This world has nothing to offer to me.” Or he could have chosen to walk towards the rewards of this world, leaving God behind.

In such a time as this, the right thing to do is to the first. But so often, we choose the latter.

I was increasingly tired as my every days was filled with CCA, church and project meetings. I came home at 10pm every day and used the little strength that I had left to do Time Alone With God (TAWG) So often, instead of praising Him, I would come home complaining about how tired I was.

But Pastor Andy said this last 2 weeks, “Give your time to church rather than to give your time to the world.”

I was immediately awakened; God placed this sentence in my heart, “I’m in Ngee Ann to fulfill God’s destiny for me.” (:

It’s not about me but about God. I’m not going to leave cell or church. Because I know what’s best for me.

Cheezelmomeezel,

Cereal

[:

2008-12-30T22:44:00.000-08:00

my computer works things out pretty slowly. it's not as if my modem is substandard. it has to be my computer. *brawls.

yesterday, i met up with zhiying. she's hilarious. we were at vivocity, when she suddenly spotted a nice looking tank top in a shop. without deliberating, she went in. as i was going to stop her because the shop's name was SPRING MATERNITY? she sensed there was something wrong as the left side of the shop was filled with prams. she turned 180 degrees before screaming (in the middle of nowhere) OH MY GOSH. IT'S A MATERNITY WEAR SHOP. i could've died of laughter. she was mortified and embarrassed. [:

that's why i love you, zhiying! you're so funny (:

zhiying and i love sundresses, but unfortunately, there weren't many pretty ones. we went into a shop (i shan't name it, lest something happens) and the people there were seriously arrogant? as i was dressed in a cartoon shirt and zhiying in shorts, the people there thought we were shabbily dressed, hence we weren't able to pay for their clothes. they talked to us in a condescending manner. phish.. but i shall not be mad because zhiying is delirious about her two new shorts from outfitters! (: and i'm elated about my new sundress.

it's new year eve! [: as we're entering 2009, paranoia sweeps through me. how well will i do for this and the next semester? but this year will be comparatively worse for those j2 students. you guys can do it! (: i believe in you!

a gentle reminder: WEAR DRESSES FOR MY BIRTHDAY, OKAY? (JAZREEL, AUDRIE, ANGELA)

i will be going to the airport later to spend the first day of 2009. :D woohoo!

cheezelmomeezel, cereal

O.o

2008-12-01T19:16:00.000-08:00

HELLO!!

Ah ha, yesterday, my mom was feeling really down, so I decided to treat her to breakfast! I really wanted to eat waffles or pancakes. But Miss Clarity Cafe, Cheeky Chocolate, etc weren't open :/ Ack. She loves Ya Kun toasts, so there's where we ate. [:

Wha, this entire week is going to be busyy. I have to prepare two of my friends' birthdays. I mean, it's a joy to prepare such occasions BUT during your tests?!! Ack. But I'm pulling through. XD

I'm really missing my SC friends. SIGHH. Oh yes, I must remember to invite them to the Christmas Evangelistic Event!!

For those who read my blog: it's on the 27th december, 5.30pm - 9pm. It will be held at Brandon's house (xinyan, yvonne and zhiying should know him XD ) which is near Bishan. (: Maybe we can meet up and chill first before going for the party? (:

LALALALA.

I came up with this creative innovation, whilst talking to my dearest sister. I love Spongebob, Patrick and HONEY STARS, hence Spongebob is HONEY and Patrick is the STAR! [: Okay, LAMEEE. I know.

cheezelmomeezel,

cereal

my cousin's wedding [:

2008-11-28T18:14:00.000-08:00

Woo! I went for my cousin’s wedding yesterday. I was supposed to do the reception!! But my wonderful, beautiful mother was late. Hence, I helped out at the ushering corner instead. ]: anyways, the point isn’t about the ushering or reception. It’s about the amazing wedding! It is such a joyous occasion watching people getting married!! My sister and i were discussing how we wanted to get married. HAHA. But it’s like 10 years down the road? No point thinking about it now right? All my close friends and myself haven’t found ourselves a boyfriend yet!! But i believe we will find ourselves one one day!!! HAHAHA. I definitely do believe that God has planned that certain someone for me. [: YOOHOO! Where are you? [:

OH GOSH. AHAHAH. I sound desperate here. *coughs.

I had a lot of fun in the wedding! A lot of people couldn’t recognize me. :/ Isn’t it weird? I saw them in February, they can recognize my sister but not me. The previous Chinese New Year, i was sitting beside the cousin who just got married, and people thought i was his girlfriend?! O.o I’m their relative not their relative’s girlfriend!!

Oh well, :D here are some photos. There are more on the photobucket! LOVEEEE!!

Cheezelmomeezel,

Cereal

busy week. but surprisingly, i have the time to post. HURR.

2008-11-24T02:46:00.000-08:00

hello!! [: i had a test today, i wasn't very strong in that topic either. ): anyways, i was telling God i needed a blessing. because i only got 35/50 for the previous test, major disappointment. i needed to get like 45/50 for this test, in order for me to get an A. :/ sounds like an impossible mission. there was this question (a) in the test which leads up to another part b question which costs 15marks. if your answer was wrong for the particular question (a), you would lose 15 marks. surprisingly, my answer for part (a) is right(checked with the teacher) so hopefully my 15 marks will still be intact. HAHA !! [: i'm so frigging happy.

ALSO, i had another blessing from God. initially, i didn't have the mooleh to pay for my church camp. but in 1 week, i managed to raise $183 through my bakery business! isn't it amazing?

my God provides.

christmas day!

2008-11-22T04:53:00.001-08:00

Oh my goodness! I'm loving the feel of christmas!

5 days i love about christmas:

1. Christmas Songs

2. The Log Cake

3. The Gatherings with Friends and Family

4. Christmas Services Provided by the Church

5: The fact that Jesus was Born on This Very Day. Because He Died for My sins. Thank You Jesus for Christmas Day!!

I used to love Christmas, simply just for the gifts. The feel of ripping apart the christmas wrappers and revealing the gifts that are hidden behind the wrappers.

But there's so much more to it! I can't wait to gather with my friends to have christmas dinners and brunches.

I remember when I was young, my family bought this log cake. It resembles a log and it had a smiley face on it. I felt so sad when I had to cut it. But eventually, I did. [: Also, I would always do the arrangements for the Christmas tree. But this year, the Christmas tree was thrown away. ): Maybe we shall buy another.. Maybe a white Christmas tree xD

Summary of this post: I LOVE CHRISTMAS.

P.S: Although there's recession, look on the bright side, also every store in Singapore is having a sale. HURR.

woolooloo

2008-11-11T06:30:00.000-08:00

HAHAHA. Oh my goodness. [: Today, I went through a swing of emotions! But I'm super glad I'm able to snap out of it and there were people who were amazed at how high I was. At a certain point, my happiness was a pretence. But after I went for cell.. After admitting some stuff to Antoinette, I broke the barrier. It was amazing how that barrier made me so angry and disappointed. Like what taby said, "it's better to tell them, otherwise the devil can use it as a snare against you."

I'M GLAD I HAVE MY CELL MEMBERS. [:

Oh Lord, day by day, I'm facing persecution beyond what I had expected. But, by the weeks, I seemed to have realize that Your joy is indeed my strength.

Cheezelmomeezel,

Cereal

killing weather

2008-11-06T23:22:00.000-08:00

Whoa. Singapore is undergoing a serious form of global warming. No wonder the girls in Singapore are able to create excuses to wear 15cm-20cm shorts and shirts that resemble a piece of cloth. Tsk!

Did you guys read about MDIS new stringent rules about the students’ hair and clothings? Check this out: this girl claims she has no mooleh to dye her hair so she had to dye it golden brown. -.- no mooleh then don’t dye it, honey.

I love macroeconomics but its giving me headaches. ARGH. It’s a hundred times more difficult than microeconomics. But heck it, I’M STILL GOING TO PURSUE MY INTEREST. (which is economics, of course) For the sake of my interest, I decided to leave the comfort zone and my clique. (because they have chosen F.I.T instead of I.E.F)

SIGHH. But my God will provide a way, yes yes?

I’m incredibly excited about my water baptism! [: Just by wondering about God’s plans makes me high and full of energy. [:

GUESS WHAT, KIDS. I’m able to play 4 chords on the guitar. Improvement? I guess so. HMMM..

I’m missing my sc friends so badly. But holidays are nearing..in like what, 1 month’s time? Hurr hurr. Patience is a virtue.

Cheezelmomeezel,

Cereal.

my wonderful weekend

2008-11-04T01:02:00.000-08:00

Hey you guys (my close friends whom i allow to read my blog) I'm fine now. I'm a little too busy to think about the problems. Instead of focusing on the problem, i will focus on the person. [: So don't worry. I'm still a cheerful cereal box

Woo! I’m terribly exhausted now.. But I shall summarise my last weekend. [:

Saturday, I met Brother Andrew, Edwin, Brandon and Eugene for a run around church. I’ve never ran such distance or at such speed in my entire life. But it was extremely fun to push myself to such limits that I never dared to venture before. After running, we ate at Adam road hawker centre, Edwin was going crazy over my green chilli and I had to make 3 runs to the stall to refill the green chilli. Do I look like some Fatima to Edwin?! I’m brothers with Brandon now. -.- Brother Cereal.

Oh yes! I just realized that Edwin likes Post Select Blueberry Cereal too! Oh my goodness, it’s my no. 1 favourite cereal, no. 2: honey stars, no. 3: Oreo Os, no. 4: waffle crisps, no. 5: frosties!!

I’ve never tried cocopops before. –mental note for ant: I shall try it one day [:

Sunday, I went to church, I woke up really late so I didn’t make it in time for prayer task force. (I got a big scolding from Brother Andrew! I shall force open my eyelids at 6.20am on Sundays.) Church service was great [: Pastor Gary’s sense of humour really improved, compared to the time when I was still a secondary 2 student. We took photos and a video of our cell for tab koh. :D we went to eat at Adam food hawker centre (again) I sinfully chomped down fried oysters and Indian style chicken chop. Ant, Brandon, Brother Andrew and I went to Gi Thiong’s house. Ant and I went to walk around in the pool, not long after, it started pouring!! But we had a fun time in the pool. :D if only I could swim.. when the time is right, I shall learn. I taught Gi Thiong how to bake chocolate chip cookies. He did a great job as a first timer. [:

Woo! I spent so much time with my cell members, I totally neglected my tutorial work. Argh.

Cheezelmomeezel,

Cereal

i love my sc friends

2008-10-31T07:40:00.000-07:00

HAHAHAHA. oh my goodness. firstly, i want to thank my bangala for being so concern about my previous post! but seriously, im kinda tight lipped about my family issues unless its absolutely necessary to tell. (necessary means im suffering from a mild breakdown and it requires me to tell someone. if i dont, i will probably go insane and depressed.) BANGALA! i love you honey. (: we're always talking about our infatuations and how it will NEVER work out. apparently, we aint guys' type. HAHAHA. but whateverrr. as long as i have my God and my friends to be with me forever. [:

secondly, i love yvonne and zhiying. oh my goodness. they made my day today with a hilarious msn conversation. (: yvonne and i want to play tennis tomorrow and then zhiying said she doesn't exercise outside because she doesn't see the point of doing so. she can run at home, how? she runs on the spot. HAHAHAA. its amazing how zhiying is so skinny without exercising.

lastly, i want to thank God for being there for me. yesterday, i cried while i was bathing. the emotional pain was unbearable and i broke down. i felt so tired with everything. i was thinking about why God wanted me to suffer through so many situations, wondering where God is right now. are my tears worth anything in God's eyes? after i finish bathing, i got back my strength and pulled out the bible and recorded down verses where suffering of Christians is for the will of God. But Jesus Christ will perfect, establish, strengthen and settle me after my sufferings. (: initially while i was crying, i wondered how i did not have to live on bread alone but on God's word. But i surprised myself by doing so. AMEN.

CEREAL WILL ALWAYS BE STRONG, RIGHT BANGALA? don't worry. i wont be sad for long. i will always get back my energy and strength to be that lame and happy cereal girl. HAHA.

argh. hmm.. har? HA!

2008-10-27T00:38:00.000-07:00

This week has been one of the most frustrating weeks for me. I’ve went through a series of emotions. From feeling angry to sad to anxious to happy then back to angry. The silent cries and pleas during my prayers made me feel small in God’s eyes. I’ve been thinking, maybe he doesn’t care about my prayers or is it because I’ve done something wrong? Nope, no replies.

But a week later, the answers started to come in gradually. The answers were not what I want to hear but this situation will let me increase in my faith and trust in God.

Actually, this month is a crucial month for me; as my water baptism is coming up. Suddenly, this series of events struck me with disappointment and anger. But I've decided to run in this race with endurance, looking unto my Saviour, the author and finisher of faith.

After all, “faith is a substance of things hoped for, evidence of things not seen.” (heb 11:1)

Salvation is here

God above all the world in motion,

God above all my hopes and fears,

Well I don't care what the world throws at me now,

It's gonna be alright!

Cause I know my God saved the day,

And I know His word never fails,

And I know my God made a way for me,

Salvation is here.

How can I keep from singing Your praise?

I can sing in the troubled times
Sing when I win
I can sing when I lose my step
And I fall down again
I can sing 'cause You pick me up
Sing 'cause You're there
I can sing 'cause You hear me, Lord
When I call to You in prayer
I can sing with my last breath
Sing for I know
That I'll sing with the angels

And the saints around the throne

P.S: when i started writing this post, it was raining heavily and the thunders were literally making me jump up from my seat. After i finished, the rain settled for a drizzle. [:

HUAT AH!

2008-10-15T05:43:00.000-07:00

woo!! ive decided to revive this blog of mine. cheezelmomeezel! (:

oh gosh. im so tired. i had a no school today so i woke up at twelve-ish and rushed to ntuc finest to get some baking materials. i baked white chocolate cookies and chunky chocolate muffins. (: (p.s: ive reserved some cookies for huishan, yeeling and limin)

im super proud of myself! ive finally found my passion. (: bakinggg and maybe the piano. i remember brandon asking what my passion was, and i had no idea? ): i felt disappointed with myself, i'm nearing eighteen and i dont have a passion (besides my passion for God and His kingdom) ha! im still trying to learn the guitar and piano. i will find my musical talent someday.

hopefully, when i have cell on deepavali, i will bake chocolate mallow pie (chocolate pie with melted marshmallows cream) for them. hurr hurr.

oh my goodness, halloween is nearing! ntuc is finally selling reese peanut butter cups (no. 2 favourite chocolate) my favourite chocolate is kinder bueno (: lovess.

ahhh, i miss zhiying, xinyan and yvonne so badly. i saw huifang (hweefang), jazreel, janet, shuying and angela during the scgs open house. oh gosh. there were so many fond memories. HAHAHA. all of us couldnt stop laughing when jazreel and i recalled that xinyan farted during the amath remedial while she was trying to get up to go to the toilet. OH MY GOODNESS.. XINYAN IS THE FUNNIEST SHITTE EVER. (: love you, girl.

i really miss the sc memories and the sc spirit that all of us have inside of us. the ncos 08-09 did a great show for open house (: the part bs-going part cs did a great presentation with the rifles. they surprised me when they were able to handle the rifles well and stamp as one. (: i cant wait for annual camp 09. WOO!!

woo! im going for my water baptism soon. wish me luckk.

cheezelmomeezel. God bless you all (: